WHAT A WEEKEND

I have decided it is time to leave the safety of my mom and dad's house (for the 4th or 5th time now). I have found a place that I really love. But- I am scared to death. I really never thought that leaving would be so hard- I mean when I was younger I'd just up and go. Have lived in more apartments/ houses/ shitholes than I can count on my hands and feet. Why am I so anxious. I told my mom and I cried. It's just not healthy for me to stay here anymore. My mom is my best friend. That is just not right. I hope everything works out. I hope I can do this without failing. I hope I get this place w/ this very cool girl who seems really down to earth. Well- have a swell evening all- I think I might start crying again.